Updated: Aug 3
Life is all about learning while you are on your journey to fulfillment. You will have highs and you will have lows, but the objective is to always preserve. Once you reach a certain point in your life, it is always good to look back and reflect as you appreciate how far you have come. No matter what your journey has shown you along the way, remember each moment has helped you grow.
This year has been one that has shown me exactly what it is that I needed to know about people, myself, and just life in general. I am one that has always been hard on people without even knowing it. I set high expectations for others to follow and literally explode or distance myself when they don’t. The nerve of me. I expect loyalty even when I’m not first in line and I love hard which is where I fall short. Nobody in life is perfect but, in my eyes, I make those I love flawless. The year of 2022 has taught me that no matter how good I am to those around me, nobody owes me anything not even the ones I have devoted myself to.
They say blood is thicker than water, but what do you do when that phrase has proven you wrong? I have found myself in many of situations where only friends have come to the rescue. As a reaction, I would without a doubt cut a person off and act as if they don’t exist, but where is the grace? I may not live my life the way others expect me to but the road I am taking is leading me exactly where I need to be. Despite the hurt I have felt, what does it profit me to be mad or completely ex a person out my life? It doesn’t, it just adds to the hurt or division that is followed by their action. I’ve learned to take my feelings out of out of certain situations and really begin place people where they belong.
This year’s journey has shown me how strong I really am. Losing not only both my parents but my grandparents as well can make anyone feel the lowest of the low. Having my second daughter without them could have really broken me, but I came out on top every time. I am a single parent, give me lemons and I’ll come back with lemonade and my support system has the sugar. When it comes to living life, I had to learn it’s okay to not miss what you think you are missing because if that door opens, it might cost you more than you gain. Overtime people change, and things change, and it can be a tough pill to swallow but you better swallow hard. During my hardships I learned my worth and what it meant to fall in love with myself all over again. Life has obstacles and there will be people that will come and go because everyone can’t stay for the ride. This was my year, the year of the entrepreneur, where I turned all my dreams into reality, and it showed me nothing, but I can do everything I set my mind to when I remove the doubt.
One of the biggest things I learned is letting patience be my best friend and that was very hard to do. I desired things and situations that was never meant for me, and it showed me just how entangled with the spirit of lust I was. I was forced to understand what real love is and being in situations that I knew I had outgrown, showed me it's always okay to move on. I no longer wanted to sacrifice my happiness being involved with people I clearly do not connect with. Literally, every situation whether good or bad has shown me that I have grown even when not responding to the negative. I am grateful for everything I have learned in 2022 and I look forward to what waits for me my text seasons to come.